x'mas & new year 2010

first celebrate it in e island, sitting together with the bule-europeans and having our x'mas fruit cake...yummy..
then, in the beach with the partners in crime..wad a party..

last year,,was damn fed up, happy with e partner besides also got many obstacle.

oops,,this year i get special give ;) while we sitting at the river side, everything getting better n better now, time really changed this. wad a gift. *thanks to the nite at the river side.

i wish for a better new year, to get a good partner *my new year resolution ;)

this year, got so many things happened, friends, carrier, partner, and so on and so on.

always here

just back from e island, kind of vacation and food! i like it and enjoy it so much.

I think i have to stop thinking anything, clear e head.

i dont know why we did it, i dont know based on wad we did it. i really lost in mind.
someday, if u feel hard, i will always available to u. now, u can go n find your love wherever it is, but when u get tired u still can get me back. i always here for u forever libie.

i only over excited to celebrate your b'dy ((=

shame on me lah hahahaha...i only over excited to wishing you happy b'dy, or i just worried if i will late to wishing u for the big day, but that was something funny, however i told san ur b'dy is today, hahaha moron!! ((=

lets have some fun, hey hey..! we celebrate it n make it nice memory for our quarter of life..yippy~~ i cant wait for the party le~~

umm how about Italian dinner with wine to celebrate our quarter of life anyway ;)

this weekend will be in e island for 1 week, hopefully will be nice holiday ;) ,last weekend was in KL, next weekend will be in Medan perhaps.

but for end of year..i still waiting, why not you make some plan for me yen?? i just follow..ok. i very lazy to think le, i already mess up with office stuffs ):

i want to be sent to another planet!

aiyo..! my head getting mess! i wonder this & that.. WTH!

finally tomorrow is our last event, and we all can going to wrapping up all shit with the community! then finalize office stuffs, then packing and move move! duunoe must happy or fed up, maybe nervous! yep!

i m going to move to another planet. the only best thing i could do to save my soul..hmmp! wth!

i got only 1 chip to bet on the first game n lost, then how to bet to another game. got no more chip, should go somewhere to find my chip back n bet again..
actually i get u along my way, but i feel numb, n at the end is frustration though.

ok lah, lets have reward melz, go holiday n enjoy e time n try to find it in your way.. i wish!!
i'll bring u b'dy gift lah, ole-ole lah, and dress?? hopeless, i dunnoe i m good enough getting u dress or not, i m stupid to choose dress... ((=

fiuhh ..!! finally 2 events from the date was done! Pasie Ie Leubeu was done, and the most bad Panteraja also done! yup! we celebrated the freedom from the cursed! ((=

last nite was our fren wedding, binik's. beer too much, eat too much, then the over excited made my legs pain like hell!! i was jumped jumped til the music off!
arrived sigli already midnite and gotta woke up very early! but everything done! done!
ah yeah..purposely met yenty at her shop to hand out dvd, or just wanna met? hell yeah... ;)

so i m this,,,,,

am I crazy or falling in love
is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when i look at u?
are you holding back at the way i do?
cause i m trying and trying to walk away
but i know this crush ain't going away

has it ever crossed your mind
when we are hanging, spending time
are we just friends? is there more?

lucky have an angel

fed up with bloody people!

come n fight me if u dare!! ur mouth are bigger than septic tank at ur house! fuck you!!
u r fucking useless crap! from now on u 2 n 3 are kind of mother fucker crap!
yes u have bulk of money but who u r? evil! fucking tricky guys! dracula! stinky crap! loser!

ok!!

thanks to the very frens always support n e trust!! great kongsuners.
and the one with her very kind heart, yen u r an angel, u give support n believe in me ((=
even we both very incompatible (u pray-i cursed), but we can enjoy our time, having fun together, n always trust me personally! how lucky ;)

i not a bloody one but also not an angel heart as yen, i cursed i fight i revile! only to fucking one!

i sorry i give u flower

why called me? only said about your mom?
ya ya..appreciate it, i thanks for the kindness.. i still can recognize your voice til whenever. .
hard for me to refused u as always, u win! as i very tempted to called u.

You forgive me for liking you too much,
And I'll forgive you for not liking me enough.

You forgive me for missing you so,
And I'll forgive you for being so cold.

You forgive me for the loud racing of my heart,
And I'll forgive you for not hearing it.

You forgive me for playing your games,
And I'll forgive you for toying with my emotions.

You forgive me for finding you so attractive,
And I'll forgive you for not noticing.

You forgive me for raising you up so high,
And I'll forgive you for bringing me down so low.

You forgive me for wanting to be with you,
And I'll forgive you for avoiding me.

You forgive me for being so pathetic,
And I'll forgive you for taking advantage of it.

You forgive me for not being able to let go,
And I'll forgive you for never having latched on.

You forgive me for having hopes and dreams,
And I'll forgive you for crushing them.

Forgiveness brings inner peace.Do we have a deal?"~

superhero

since our superhero arrived, our hopes brighten up!
contract hopefully will extend til mid year 2010 (dungdung plz go to hell)

last weekend really purposely went to banda to met yenty..yep yep..we spent our day! was fun.

so..this month & e next final month will b busy coz of the project program! there is no wrap-up end of this year dungdung!!

fed up with bloody people, actually we r fren but u all r fucking bloody, fucking stingy, fucking tricky bitch! go to hell u!!

i only focus to the right track.

gutless!

have nothing to say..

no funny thing happened

no gossip to blow out

i m broken


only to that 1 the only 1 my gut as bis as a dot! pheesai!
no i cant, i only can boomz here n there then never have gut to tell it out! fuck!
no no no.. i leave it all..the story to forget (=


i wont like u de!

i thanks to my buddies that accompanied me passed this hard phase, u all that always listen to my story, accept me as who i m, n gave support..

i ain't need any replacement that fast le.. ck! i was wrong, everything changed. sometimes, when u were text me, i didnt reply, i sorry coz i havent ready yet. u still can mess up my recovery program.

let it go

so..was quite crowded rite! even i still heard about that wad fucking 'how many people'

u didnt ask i didnt ask! we were lived like this for so long in this fucking quiet game.
before the bloody ending i decided to off, i quit! sounds like loser, yes i m! these few days opened my mind, u obviously told by every conversation that u r not or already having dating with somebody else.

since i never have any chance to tell the truth in rite timing, since u been more distance, i finally got my line back, means taking back my heart before it broken, hell, tot i've been so emo lately!

hey wad r u? fed up!! i hate mind game!!

i wanted too much n it killed me! gosh! got to make up my days again! cbcbcbccb!!
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2 men came, i saw it from my window, i panic!! no security man, security is suddenly sick, n i m the temporary cute pretty security, gosh!!
"huh..maybe they come to ask donation, how how how..i peep from the window..wuaaahhhh!!!
he is on the window looking at me! shit! shit! e cute pretty security cant hide anymore!!

ok, breathe melda! open the door slowly and never show ur elegance face or he will ask more donation!

"hello mister! r u looking somebody?"
"yes miss, i m from this.......company, n i would like to attend bidding for drill well"
///blushing..blushing!!! shit!! shit!! they are not asking donation!! omfg!! how bloody i was!!

they came with that wad fucking plastic bag as beggars fav bags one!! hell!!
beggar's inside got many many envelopes mention their family broke their leg or cancer or toothless included the pics then recommendation letter from some bloody hell person and after got money they will purchase new motor bike! WTF!!

i wil accompany u to the event (=

tonite Kurnia Airlines again to Medan! happy anot..? yay i m happy hippy ~~
cos most of us going together, should b so so fun! excited!

lastnite laying on the seat at riverside as always n always talking rubbish
sex talk always made fun wad, everybody interested to join wth!
now everybody know wad MM did with the fucking Bak Pao! 2 hot bak pao together to fuck!! ((=
nothing new?? where is it..why i feel like days getting bored, it never run high anymore??
or boring waiting too long, or even i dont wanna wait anymore, and moving around.. if u still like this til end of the world i will not wait le!

maybe this is my fault, i always did it, dunnoe le, i always stuck with wad fucking schedule!

u r so bloody dudung, why u pretend wad was we talking about and hurry sent us the fucking 3 months schedule! i already found the cheapest training wad! n its clear november we have full activities, n we will not go on nov wad! hell! u r so fucking bloody!

siska
i dont care even u read my blog everyday n make it into your status in ym, hell!
ok, i stop everything about u le, so please never get into my days again. ok, deal!go ahead n get your happiness.

i dont care if u did wad e fucking text to me with wad fucking 'meri' named!! i knew!
whoever u, n if it was from u! u was looking suck when u did it u know! so never do it again.
u happy wt that fucking text ah! u r so chee bay bo kang cho! wtf!

tot i dont like jakarta..i was said "i dont like..i dont like..

arrived in jakarta, my bb spoiled, aiyo!! actually not really spoiled lah, only totally finished the battery!! wait too long in the airport then chit chat on ym! hell!!

wth! had borrowed e porter's phone!

anyway..arrived in apartment n that was a super place to stay, saw here LCD, there LCD, bed room LCD, dining room LCD, ok maybe i title it 'LCD Apartment' ((=

that was luxurious place! and family was fucking nice, i really feel like home!

my phone, spoiled again in the apartment! i tot the phone didnt get used lived in the lux place! it getting used lived in river side point perhaps! hell yeah!! how we grow to be rich, c'mon!!

sister is so so kind sister, i love my niece n nephew, i saw u since u were kid le..

Chalia is so cute n smart n active n good girl n u wear original gucci!! i love her! i miss her much

vivi is so nice mommy, nice fren, nice partner fo gambling either ((=

ayi is very kind woman, n we joke n we chat n we gambling, wtf!! super rite..

another aunty was nice, we went shopping together, actually i accompanied her to the branded Stuffs shops Chanel, LV, Burberry,... aiyo..20 million different from Milan

all the best things spent in there, eat n eat n eat till wanna puke! aiyo..brother got so many cars.. u r that rich ah..got mpv, got bmw, got sport car, n many more..no wonder even ur baby daughter wears original gucci (=

i fed up i didnt get yen in Jakarta
tot u ignore my text, n wad u said?? u didnt get any text from me??? hell...
so actually u never get my text n u didnt realize i m in Jakarta, finally i heard u at my last day.. yeah i was so busy thought but yeah i meant we was quite closed in the same town, and u never know i was there, aiyo how come!!
u should be busy lah in the funeral i knew that..n u had very less rest, how poor u girl..

so finally back to medan together with yen lah, scolding her all the way lah, coz never realise we was at the same town! but how poor she was, she was look so weak n her eyes like Panda, coz never sleep properly during the funeral..

Bloody Drama Queen

my poor sis..

i sorry u was cheated by that one, i knew e one from the very beginning..
i never wanna get involved to both of u, i only could ignore everything happened to u
how that one always blame u about financial matter, or even that one only having fun with u!
how that one asked me to keep all e cheats! wtf! i not into both of u, i only ignore.

e bloody drama queen was created too many too many fake story to make u trust to, and also make chaos to whenever situation that could possible harm e popularity.
did break our relation by slander, fake story, n so many story to hide e lies! so bloody! fuck man!

and u only flown by e story, u did trust, u against ur trusted frens as enemy, u r brain washed!

e devil did slut! to e very green one! u r only a spare!! got it anot!!

now..maybe u still dont wanna trust to ur very frens, too long u stay with the devil, u will need quite long time either to get ur brain back! how poor of u!

everybody know all bout this devil behave, if i could say "public enemy" yes that is!
even u never get the truth from me, u will get it from most of e people that know e devil. u dont have to trust me, just wait n the truth will always come as a diamond, it wont stained by all the fucking slanders!!

cat woman!

today gossip is about Cat Woman! or Black Cat or Vampire!! wtf!


the fucking story is like this:

a man called Fahrul at his home n going to sleep, but suddenly a cat crossing his room n he tried to kicked it out but a cat changed to be a tall girl n wanted to bite him! they both fighting! wtf! finally he ran out and the girl gone!


yep! wtf! this gossip realy happening in the community, it was post in the newspaper, and everybody talk about it!

our community still very primitive, thats why those story can be more popular than MIYABI / Maria Ozawa! that is now get all the eyes from islam in our country due to her visit to indo! Moron!!


aiyo..i m pregnant! about 3 months! the one who will responsible to this is MM!! how come!!

we are agree we havent do anything yet, right! and if we did, we are gonna sell our kids by 10 for $100 yoohoo!!

and our wedding will be a great great party, coz that Giant-Gajah will gill us about 100 grams gold! wuihhh wtf! and Ronal will arrange Batak music stage for 1 week! super! and others will give anything wad they have as a loyal kongsuners huahahah! siao!


eiits, after i told something about my past love story, love?? wtf! moron story!

why so dumb, why didnt say straight to the point! i havent ready yet ok! i only wait for the right timing! coz i not sure u wil happy to hear it. even i not say it is u!

but why u did this, always make a mistery! why hv to changed?! hope u only not ready.


0k ok..tomorrow go to jakarta?! wtf! i dont like.. i dont like...

obviously!! since dunnoe when..i wait n see then i got it now!
we all cant run n hide from wad our heart really want.

when i really wanna stop, u get me back! think i have to stay in this line, wad my bestfriend told me, make it as us. thanks buddy, i heard wad i want.

ok, now i m home, i now love to be home! in my cubicle! in my kota terkutuk, in 'badsigli' , n this is not desperate sentence ((: for sure.

the book inspired me, control my bloody mind, build up my soul, but i will always be bloody me hell yeah..!

hey..suddenly i miss my buddy, i miss willy the virgin badly! the one that i can talk everything with, u always busy lately, cant get u! aiyoo! i miss we 3 with bloody cun! yes..! talk rubbish n pissed! wanna turn back time! wtf!

now wad!

Whew*! How come u think u r the one I talking about in my post! Ckckck! Shame of u!
Now u r reading again rite! Ok I tell u! U r NOT THE ONE I talking about!! Never! Ok! Don't over confidence!

FYI! The one who with me now is just perfect,ok! Too gud to b true!

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Yen..I won't laugh at u! No no, only joke, ok, hahahaha
Why u so plain! Can't be..ok then I wil let u know lah! I m e Guru! Yes!
So..Tomrw cinema again? Yes..! Ur fault yen coz u went without me haha
Should watch e same movie, coz u said nice rite! Must see rite! U accompany loh! Wuaah..

Tired! Should hv a gud sleep tonite, tmrw wanna do wad? Just follow lah.
Have to say sorry, e fact is u only an angel, I too bloody let negtv thinking mess up into us!
We made it fun, we made it, yep!

I have to plan holiday lah! Won't let e days turn bored! Ok ok, I promise!

moron!

Dunno why get involved into this moron game!
Last game played too fast! Was a jet play something like that!
And now..tot should b slow, but too slow then get wad!! Nothing!

Why negative issue always going true! Damn! So fed up! The happy one never really happened! Only clue n clue! Wtf!
Bored already, I wait for nothing! Then ask also can not, just let everything pass by!
Scared wad! Me also dare not to start, here also change nothing, just same!

Asked to that point also never asked for more, only it! Then enough! Oh why turn to b berry mystery! I hate to think by my self!
I never complain wad! Anything ok! Just follow the rules! But why ended like this?!

Or wanna play some fun? N now got it already n feel free to leave like this! Happy now? I scared more than u ever tot! Yes like this!
I did bluff for e question, but was for goodness, to let u stay more longer!
No need to sit that far, mess up wt wad fucking chatting! I even never try to do anything! I accept anything as anything!

fed up!

overwhelmed with many emotions..i not tension, no! i just fed up with everything..anything..!

early morning in the office, i only read email as every bloody day, they was arguing about wad fucking room rate, and i felt to having morning joke beetwen them, said like this "ah com'on dont ask too much from office, only take wad were given" .....and suddenly bloody Husaini really meant it! fuck! he really did it! pour oil on the flame! you are so so fucking bloody!! i only joke with ronal wad! you no need to make chaos between me and Posma! fed up!!

i didnt have any breakfast today, lazy..only had hot milk during meeting! i think i m not so in mood because i m hungry, yes..! correct! got email that mentioned tomorrow going to medan to purchase wad bloody sewing machine that was already request for 2months, hell!! prepare the documents and mimin coming..for fuck! right? for see the fucking bitch on the screen! WTF!!

better back earlier for lunch, yup! after lunch felt much much better, tot that bad mood was from hungry stomach! hell yeaah..!

feel so bored whole day in the office today, chatting bored! surfing bored! sitting only get pain at back!! shit! yesterday was so excited, wth!!

people back home earlier coz black out, actually black out only 20mins! haiyo..took chance from that! ckckckck!

the only relax time is catch up with the gang! Kongsuners! yup! everyday..never miss it! should sit together just at the riverside point, drink beer (steady!), hot tea macham lau akong, and teh botol (so indonesian) hahaha wtf! eat wad, sugar canai..ommelet..and mie goreng! ck!

today got impromtuness gambling! i lostttt!!! fuck! i m going to sell akew mole! or the others aunty and uncle moles! aiyo..! your legendary moles (symbol of family!!) taik lalat legendaris!! WTH!! huahahaha it could be berry very expensive right! huahahaha
tonite topic was nenen!! wuiih! yuuummmmy!!! bigbig twins! horrrraaaayyyy!! who will get the grand prize! wtf! they all going to bet for grab kind of sabine twins! WTF man!!!! they said they only put the dick between it and already get orgasm wtf!!!!!!! huahahahaha!

virgin!

yay~~that is..a virgin hahahahaha WTF!!


first time i talked to 25 years old woman, woman or girl??? umm...and didnt know anything about sextacular. wtf!! but should be funny, i wonder does she horny??? huahahahaha !! yes yes i like kinky stuff!! dont u?? and wad i heard about, seem like very taboo to talk about sex? sex talk only for men?! helll! or lets talk about sex after merried..WTF!!!


then i said, so..you are going to learn to get orgasm after merried?? then when you knew hows orgasm, you are getting menopause huahahahaha WTF!! when...when..u can enjoy life!! huahaha


I think i will like the okke's book "menikah dan lajang, sama enaknya sama ribetnya" yes, it talk about merried woman n single woman.

the merried one should be babies production then take care baby n so on n so on..hahahaha me said, and the single one..people always said single woman will be a cursed virgin-Perawan Tua, WTF!! the fact is:


Do you think i m in suffer and lonely because of love! dont you remember i m fucking free, dont care anything thus can having sex here n there n there anywhere... yay~~ yes! yes! i m single n FREEE
wtf! hahaha ok ok i mean lets do it by love umm..making love, yes correct! no need to get merried and take care the mother in law..wuaaaahhhh! passion gone once see the mother in law face!! huahahahah

actually good to have partner in life..me still looking too (= but still got meh?? the everlasting partner, WTH!! extinct already!! only got one for this month n next month change n others month totally different person! hell yeah..! or money the only one can make people stay..umm..yes!

mixed

yest got sms from the hell!!

hell : melda could you please give me some GAA fund for my personal need? --> WTF!!

reply: oh yeaahhh..can! just text Rodhiah, she will make it for u! --> fuck!

hell : umm...how to say to Rodhiah?! --> stupid ass question!!

reply: (= just say what u just said to me! ----> pretend more then really send u crap!!

hell : how bout if i can get from you either? ---> mm..sounds yummy!! Wad the FUCK!!!!

---Stop Reply--

just wonder how people think in their mind!! they are brainless!! fuck!! only know ask money for fuck! should say really PUKIMAK!! ask GAA Fund for PERSONAL need!! HOW DARE!!!! really tension with those people who always ask money!

also got many many people ask whether got project to do?! ask for job to Padang! Hell yeah..! we even never know whether got project there or not! me also going to find new job because i m ending my contract soon! and those people who ask for the job are jobless people, and they are too far from qualified! i m not judge, but some of them even never work because of fucking lazy! some was worked BUT sure bad recomended worker! hellll......!!

in Padang people suffering by the earthquake! they do need more help! and here fucking people only ask money for their fun! cant imagine! ck!!!


--OK ok----STOP TENSION---

lets talk about happy yippy stuffs ~~~yayyy~~~

1. received our shop online package..ya..ya..not bad :p i not used to do this shopping online, but sometimes getting bored in the room (= and make fun..dunnoe le this is good quality stuff of not, not branded one, then dunnoe about the quality..

2. u really purposely invite me right?? but how come i can join all party..we are not in the same town, ok.. fren wedding is important, i'll try to join you! and the other one also in the same week, i think we cant make it, I should choose only one le! hmmmm...so how...?

3. wad we are now..? umm..wad? funny le..dont know how to say.. ((=

huey said "come on naa..today we are not ask --> hey i like u, wanna be my partner!"

so wad..is it more fun?? no status, then can get along with other one...? and other one.. yay~~ can be like that right..happy here n happy there..n there n there hahahahaha wtf!

we are dunnoe..i ~u purposely had nice conversation everyday, everynite, every working day, and we have plan to have holiday together, u sometimes shocked me by the wierd talk, i mean sometimes u said like we r a couple and sometimes u seem like pretended this condition about us, u tried to bluff to another cinderela story, prince to princess..wth!!

DIA

(edisi ini tidak untuk dikonsumsi oleh umum) hanya kepada Huey dan nama yg tersebut dibawah!

Berapa jam gue diskusi bareng huey untuk masalah ini..umm…3jam kali, ampe huey selesaiin potong rambut 1 kepala lisa plus make up yg ala mau kondangan! Ckckck… Padahal kita Cuma akan pergi makan kepiting di rumah susun omfg!


pillow talk sama huey gak pernah ada habis nya dh..sejak 7 tahun yang lalu kali yah huey..sekamar n cerita ampe tertidur..(nostalgia) hahaha


“jadi nurut loe, gimana huey? Tadi pas lu masuk dia nanyain gue, nurut loe ada maksudnya gak..? sambil muka serius si huey (ntah dipaksain ato emank nyimak) “nanya apaan dia? Umm..dia nanya ‘gue sebenarnya apa sih’, biasa..status..status..! dia nanya gue sbenarnya suka apa..?! gini..


Dia: "umm lu itu apa sih? Lu suka sama v ya? "
Gue: "hah? V? gak ah..kita Cuma temen n gue bahkan ingin jodohin dia sama dora..! hahaha joke!…maksud loe?
Dia: "kl lu suka v artinya kita sama donk! Maksudku kl lu suka sama jenis v berarti kita sama donk (brother)!! --> sambil nyengir ngejek..


Gue: "hah..umm..gue blom tau, maksud gue, gue blom punya org yg gue suka jd gue gak tau..lagian gue gak bisa kayak lu org pada..gue di lingkungan yg berbeda..(jawabannya rada gak nyambung sih..)


(Sbenarnya gue mau jawab, gue suka ama org kayak loe!!, yg slalu buat suasana jd segerr n menyenangkan!! )
Dia: (sambil angguk, ntah ngerti ntah gak!) ow..ok.. senyum lagi..


Di Kok Tong (coffee)


Dia: kamu tau, aku gak pernah melakukan perjalanan jauh apalg harus keluar negri buat ktemu temen chatting..yg satu kota dengan gue aja gue gak perna pake acara ktemuan..males..!
Dan aku jg gak perna ngirim sesuatu buat orang ampe keluar negri.., hanya dengan kamu..
Gue: “glek!!! Hah..mau jawab apa nih.. Cuma jawab ‘oyah..? dan nyengir lagi…! Wtf!! Bego banget sih! Gue gak tau harus ngomg apa, n gue Cuma terdiam, tolol!


Di Hypermart


Dia: mau belanja apa? Sini gue yg harus bawa keranjangnya..
Well dia act selayaknya gentleman, ok nice..slalu kl saat kita bareng hanya berdua dia buat gitu, apa aja terserah gue n dia jg maksa ingin bayar..ckckckck…


Di suasana lain
Saat gue terima pesan dari ym..ntah knapa gue merasa dia ngawasi gue dgn tatapan bertanya ‘ sapa yg kirim pesan’ so..gue jd merasa harus ngasih tau walaupun dia gak Tanya..”umm ini dari v, dia nanyain lg ngapain n malam akan pergi dinner gak…?”
Dia: oow..dia suka ama lu…kalian sepertinya suka saling menggoda satu sama lain ya, suka chatting dll..
Huh..!! apa-apaan sih dia ngomg gt! “ ah gak kok, dia Cuma nanya doank kl mau kluar yeah ntar dia bisa siap-siap”
Dia: oow…ok (nyengir ngejek!)


Di Karoke
Gue gak mau duduk samping v, gue gak mau banyak cerita dengan v, gue akan bersikap biasa sajah sama smua orang, yeah biar dia gak serang gue terus..! sial..fiuh..!
Alhasil gue undang temen-temen gue yang lainnya dateng n gue lgsg menyatu (cyee…) temen sekampong n sepermainan semasa kecil..gt dh..kita emank klop sejak kecil ckckck…jd gue langsung duduk diantara mereka..dan lagi-lagi..DIA masih melirik ke arah gue, n perhatiin gerak gerik gue..! ck!! Gue gak terganggu kali ini krn emank apa adanya dgn temen lama..tsah!


Di suasana lain lagi..
Dia : “eh bukannya tadi kita akan lompat bareng pas permainan tadi..? eh kok jadi gue sendiri yang lompat?” kok kita gak lompat bareng?” mesra donk (sambil bercanda)
Gue: ?!! “umm eh tadi itu bahaya kl kita melakukannya bareng-bareng..jadi mending satu-satu lompatnya” hehe..


Dia: “knapa lu smalem tidur nya terlungkup?”
Ck! Apa-apaan sih smua hal perlu banget ditanyain! “ oow..itu, biar pinggang kita lebih enakan aja sih..lagian gue jg tidur di sudut biar lu gak terganggu ato sempit..gt dh..” (alasan gue aja) sbenarnya gue gak mau kalo dia pikir yang macem-macem.. soalnya sebelum tidur, pas smua org milih posisi n kasur, gue milih seranjang dgn dia, gak ada pilihan lain sih! halah! Yeah gue udah pernah seranjang dgn dia n smua nya baik-baik saja.jd nyaman aja. Pilihan laen adalah seranjang dengan Dora..ah gak dh, gue jg gak pernah keknya seranjang dgn dora..hihi.. lagian sbelum tidur, pas kita milih tpt tidur dia komen gini “ owh..lu sengaja biar seranjang dengan gue kan..” (sambil ngejek)


Dia: “ow gt yah..tapi gue jg tidur di sudut juga kok supaya lu gak sempit”


Adengan lainnya udah lupa, Cuma itu sih yg masih teringat..! sbenarnya gue jg gak tau knapa mau tau maksud dia dengan pertanyaan-pertanyaan dia, munkin gue Cuma mau clue aja buat bersikap sama dia, yeah..gue gak mau kl gue salah bersikap, ntah malu-maluin atopun bisa menyinggung perasaan dia..dooh!


Sebenarnya lagi gue merasa dia menyimpan sesuatu yang dia blum ingin sampaikan ke gue..dulu..(cyee dulu..macam udah puluhan taon aja kenalnya) dia selalu cerita smua detail hal ke gue, kenalin smua temen-temen nya, gue gabung dengan temen nya, bahkan gue dikenalin dengan anjing nya..ckckckck…
Sampai smua kembali kepada kesibukan masing-masing..kepada kenyataan hidup.. ((=

emo..

everybody going emo lately..i hate to see this, I hate me personal being emo either..!
sometimes I think why people only live with this emo n emo again, useless! Everyday only talk about broken heart, cheat, n so on..why never do something n make life more fun

their emo effect somebody else! All the updated status on facebook also like that, hate it! Moron! I’ve moved out, I m finally doing it! And I don’t look back anymore..let everything go this way..

being with you was a fool, totally wrong choice! I thanks to all the happened things last time, I thanks to being cheated by you, that I will never get along with you, u will harm my life if so! I regret why was so dumb!

Better do something to help people, go to the disaster place and give our help, useful and valuable.
I wish I will be sent to Padang, help people of the earthquake disaster, I wish I can join the emergency response from our welthungerhilfe team. I know how the situation after disaster, my family, relatives n friends also passed this situation when was Tsunami 2004, it was very sad, I really wanna do something to others.

only sleep

i decide to spend the rest of my day after office by sleep n sleep well, not sleep with..or not sleep by doing something with somebody, (it was so yesterday hahaha) not sleep plus plus ((= just sleep on my bed myself and dream..


Eh sukma said I m getting fat?? Really? I can’t believe it..yes I had good food in medan, but I also played hard (= I only fat on face perhaps, only chubby n I hate it! I want that craving face, umm.. something like that, it makes good character on face..is it..? I think so..not that chubby chooby face very ugly le..

Roberto really called me, PO received 300kg apple-pear, have to go to medan, bobo will go, I cant go, I give up I cant play that hard..have to rest my body..yes..yes..hard to admit i m getting old!! happy now?!! happy to hear this? melda is getting old!!, she is already quarter of life and this is her last chance to get orgasm!! WTF!!


yen wad u said? go to medan again, this weekend, i tot u will said, ok so next time come n we chill out together..i already forward u san text message right, she was said MUST COME, C U, BYE! wtf! did i tell u i m cracking up..i already created sad story about the way to reach medan by bus..8hrs inside the fridge, freezing! ckckck...everybody should know how those kampong people travel that hard just to reach one place that we call out from the cursed! hell yeah..!


yess..we work here, we earn money from here, but that just it is..no shopping mall, no hypermart, when i want eat chocolate wafer or cake, i just can get 'teh botol' again..!! wtf!!


we really talking "crap" with the 'riverside point' (wtf) buddies-kongsuners-anak sunge. wtf!! wad we discussed was fucking disgusting tonite, was about shit! shit that floating on the river, the size, and the shape/type, WTF!!!! want vomit anot...! hahahaha

ok..ok..stop melda! going to the bed..and good nitez.. ;)

late again.. fed up!

Hoooaammmm......damn sleepy..!! i was late!!!! woke up at 08. am WTH!!

i listened my phone alarm! but this morning so calm..no busy out side..tot everybody gone to another planet this morning and leave me alone in the kampong!!

hurry up!! com'on..melda! bath n fly to office!! ok, should text Ronal "i will b late 30mins" wth!

i used to late everyday ma!! as i used to drink teh botol everyday! no breakfast at 08.am this morning, dont know feel like lazy n weak..so weak..ok then should ask our boy to go out by me mie goreng & teh botol again..wth! feel better after having those poison!

heyyyy...where r u?? why never see u this morning? last nite text u also no reply? tot my ym spoil last nite, but today also never catch u up yet..did u receive my message? dont know lah.. maybe i juz think too much..or u just off coz busy, anyway...will see later..

and wad u said san??! "should b arrive on this saturday and we going out again" WTF!! my body going crack and dont wanna play hard core le! today is the 3th day, and still feel damn tired!! no..no..i m not getting old! yess! i m young n strong! but need relax a while!

my wish, roberto not call me today..i wish he wont ask me to take the purchase order today..or when.. i wish him to call me ummm..next week is just ok.. so this weekend can rest n having BBQ at nite, yeah..thats right..!! if you call me this week, bobo wil b the one who kena going to medan again..haiyoo..he will becomes salted fish anyway..hehe.. (next week pleaseeee...) we will love u so much roberto...amin!

finally..goal..

Josse Roberto...huuuuu...waiting your phone call like waiting my love phone call! wtf!!
alright...i love it, i love to hear it..already wait for long long life..finally....

achieve the goal! ok..not so big big project..! apple-fruity project, make we can fuck the world again n again...yay...1 project done today! wad next...still got many-many..., lets do it 1 by 1..feel like hyper lust..wtf!!

office hotainment

and wth r u doing ronal! u ride along with that f** bundoo!! i was shocked up!! lucky i was not stroke at that moment hahaha..so romance show..where were u going? tot u 2 going to empang..that our back yard fucking dirty pool, were u sending her to shit on that empang? huahahahahaha...ckckckc...i just leave for 2minutes and she hurry asked u to out?? so scary e that bloody nanny!! omfg!!!

i cant hide my laugh to this fucking funny show!! hahaha or u just pretend to hate that bloody nanny infront us, and actually u 2...ehm..hm.. >>><<<< toing..toing... 2 becomes 1 hahahaha u r the one the commander with us to against that bloody nanny!! wth!! wad u ate from her? u kena gong thao = jampi-jampi=magic from the hell!!
she the bloody nanny from the snake cave came out to cursed everybody ----> so scary.. but she is sukma boss hihihi...not mine huahahahaha

go fuck urself!!

I will never care wadever u type on ur status! Go to hell ya!

Wad u said?! “I m happy..spending days wt lover!” Wtf! U only tried to disturb me right! Fuck u! I don’t even care, I thanks to that fucking stupid guy who ever come to you!

Now wad?! Type again “miss me, n wanna hear my voice” fuck you!!
U will never win! U got it anot!! I know u only anwei yourself! U just try n try to get me back!
No way!! Gosh! U r fucking disturbing!!

anyway...Ronal!! please dont make me laugh.. "melda, wad r u doing?! go n prepare e proposal for us to get training in Bali" wtf!! when u said? this month? yes next month! gosh!
ok..ok..here it is..listen, training management package in Kuta, Bali, 2000$ per person!! for 5 days! see it ronal!!! count..count...!!!! wtf!

then...quite for so long...huahahahaha...now wad! got money anot????? 2000$ hahahaha
yes, please never ever compare with that fucking handicraft training in Yogyakarta, that was only 200$ wtf! they only make mat! we make fun..hahaha no i mean we make management stuff, totally different with that fucking mat stuff! hahahahaha and wad the Austin Power will say "do u think i m crazy!!" u all go Bali get training for 2000$ or going for fuck!!! ok ok..i approve it for next life hahahahahahaha kam lan!!!!!!

must be dead in sleep

Hell yeah..damn sleepy..!! sleep in the bus the whole night much better, even should b in the office early morning, body going crack n wil b ok after full rest in a week..yep..

After office still cant juz going sleep, have to clean up my room, take out all the dirt clothes, think wad to eat for dinner…wish crime mates wont come, hey buddy let me sleep awhile..
and they still come for beer and jhonny walker WTF!!!

they now playing football in the beach every evening..umm sounds fun, I want to join after had full rest later..i not play football, I only sit and eat or swimming i guess..

The days wil be always like this in this kampong, it wil never change til next millennium wth!
I m getting bored in medan, lagi-lagi fucking bored in kampong, actually wad I need? Don’t know.. orh..not that bad actually, these buddies everyday coming really make the day fun le..everyday talk rubbish, chee bay n chee bay for thousand times, wtf!! n then gambling..hell yeah!

suddenly i saw zumi=cumi-cumi=crazy man, yep!! he is going crazy..perhaps he kena brain wash! poor or scary..he was our colleague in the office of course before mad, normal man turn to be crazy..everyday talk about he has many many companies, has alot of cars, n others property.
just now i saw him in ym, i text him, i tot maybe he changed already, maybe he just too much stress last time, n wad i heard, he just still the same crazy man talk about crap!! wth!
or he is now a terrorist?? he ask me not to tell anybody about his ym id, he cant tell me where he is now..and he talk about indonesia not safe, WTF!!

anyway...this fucking chao ca bo, still try to get my attention! WTF! just a second i type this, and she just come by the text! fuck you! i dont care u, i dont wanna reply!
wad do u want! just go away from me! you make me getting irritation!

after 10.000 days..

hellooooo..Melda..!!! wad the hell r u doing lately..

ok i think i m going to blog after gone for million years..i m not as good as syl in blogging, but it good to keep writing anyway..

1. finally syl visit medan (cant believe it) - we knew each other since april 08
20.09.09 pick her up in airport and go to Berastagi for 2 nights, our van spoil otw to bukit :) me and frens made her stone sometimes but she is super, always fun.

2. in Medan
rafting!! super fun le! dayung maju...dayung mundur...woooooo!! jump together from e higher rock..feel like commit suicide
clubbing with waii frens, wth..! eat, coffee, eat, and club

3. the rest 3 days in medan
spent with aceh frens..also wt same activities; eat, coffee, eat, ktv.

ok..actually i thanks to this holiday, thanks to syl for coming, thanks to all waii frens, that had made e days fun..before got alot of stress in mind, tension with e mother fucker chao ca bo!

now u think u r a winner!! u think u can type anything on ur status juz to disturb me, no..! u r totally wrong! fuck u! now ur god already sent u another guy for u to bully and play with..think i should thanks to ur god! i m free n get my line back!

"wad r u ?" people very often ask me this quetion, syl asked me too! wad r u interested to..
"i dont know" actually not i dont know..! i dont know yet wad thing make me interest, or how stupid i was when u asked me! i interest with funny people, i like someone like u, why i never answer like that. coz i dont wanna make things turn awkward. we called it: le'bay

me also dizzy about some happening things to me, all those meaning to something? u asked me out, accompanied u, lunch til dinner, wake me up..chat, or even wierd question for only ordinary fren..?? i dont know..i lose instinc, or i never even wanna guess..i dont wanna ask either..juz let thing happen as it flow..

Dinas kependudukan

Hari ini aku berhasil dapetin data penduduk Kab. Pidie, untuk mendukung kelengkapan data penelitian.

Aku ke Departemen Kependudukan kota, dan bertemu dengan Bapak Kepala Dinas yang sangat ramah, dari Beliau saya diijinkan mengfotocopy data penduduk per 31 Maret 2009, data paling up date. Aku puas dengan pagi ini, aku mendapatkan apa yang aku mau dari kantor ini.

Sebenarnya Beliau punya 1 buku kependudukan yang sangat lengkap dan tebal, smua data penduduk ada disitu, tapi sayangnya Bapak itu hanya punya 1 kopi, jadi Beliau tidak dapat memberikan kepada saya untuk dibawa, walau untuk Fotokopi, karena itu perlu waktu dan Beliau kwatir kalo datanya akan hilang atau rusak.
Yeah..menurut aku gak apa juga sih, karena data yang dikasi dalam 1lembar saja sudah cukup mendukung.

Trus, rencana nya sore ini aku akan bertemu dengan Mister, salah satu responden yang akan saya interview, smoga juga sore ini berjalan dengan lancer. Soalnya dengan Mister janji nya uda sejak minggu lalu, karena dia sakit jadi tertunda dh interview nya.

Besok Pemilu (election) aku gak buat interview karena semua orang pasti pergi untuk memilih lagipula pada hari itu munkin orang – orang akan lebih memilih di rumah bersama keluarga, berhubung dengan masih tidak pastinya kondisi dalam pemilu ini. Semua orang masih cemas dengan keadaan.

2009

2009

Pertama kali gue nulis lagi, setelah lama absen dari blog, ini juga atas permintaan Researcher gue, karna gue bekerja membantu beliau mengumpulkan data.
Napa yah gak ngeblog lagi, umm..karna gue sibuk?? (halah) sibuk tak menentu :) karna malas atau gak ada lagi cerita menarik di 2009 kali..begitulah.

Tapi terakhir semakin aktif ke laut, memancing ikan, berenang dan nyantai di laut dengan boat. Itung-itung buat ngilangin stress yang tibul dari banyak sudut diri..(wualah!) sebenarnya umm sibuk kerja juga, sibuk dirumah yang lagi mikirin mau buka warung yang tiba2 ada Pemilu jadi harus ditunda, trus tiba-tiba keterima kerja sampingan dengan ibu Manuela.
Kerjaannya adalah ngumpulin data dari nara sumber trus nulis report dan serahin ke Manuela, kerjaan tambahan gue ini sbenarnya belum perna aku kerjain sebelumnya tapi senang aja Manuela percayain gue buat ngebantuin dia.

Salah satunya yeah interview orang-orang dari kelompok sumber informasi, project ini adalah tentang persepsi masyarakat Aceh terhadap HIV-AIDS, jadi dari sana aku harus interview orang-orang Aceh dari banyak kalangan, dari kalangan yg pendidikan formal nya rendah sampai yang udah mulai berkembang, tantangan nya yeah itu, pertama kali gue buat interview dengan seorang supir bus yang pengetahuan nya tentang HIV sangat sedikit dan bagi orang seperti mereka hidup adalah menyerahkan saja kepada Tuhan, jalanin hidup sesuai perintah agama, kalau di langgar yeah kena kutukan, simple banget dh hidup seperti mereka.

Kedua gue interview seorang yang pernah bekerja di Malaysia, nah dia punya pandangan sedikit beda dengan pak supir, karena dia juga hidup di luar dan membaur dengan berbagai jenis suku bangsa diluar sana, hidup dihadapi dengan penyesuaian diri dengan agama sebagai panutan, dia juga terbiasa hidup dengan orang yang berbeda cara hidupnya dengan dia dan dapat berjalan dengan baik.

Lagi sekarang gue harus buat appointment dengan beberapa orang yang lebih sulit, misalnya aku harus interview seorang yang punya gaya hidup free sex, misalnya seorang wanita yang siap ditidurin kapan aja asal dibayar, tantangan nya semakin berat hehe..sebenarnya wanita seperti itu banyak disekitar rumah, mereka bahkan setiap hari lewat tapi aku gak mau interview orang yang gak jelas hidupnya, maksudku, ada orang yang hidup dengan gaya hidup free sex tapi tetap menjalani hidup dengan normal, nah kalau yang sering lewat itu adalah PSK kampong yang tau nya hanya duit-dan duit, jika aku interview orang jenis mereka, yang ada hanyalah mereka yg aka asal jawab pertanyaan aku dan menanggapinya dengan tidak serius. Jadi aku harus mencari orang yang benar2 tepat untuk diinterview, bukan orang yang bicara omong kosong, karena aku butuh data yang benar.

Yah! Mudah-mudahan dalam minggu ini aku juga bisa ngumpulin beberapa orang untuk di interview :)