let it go

so..was quite crowded rite! even i still heard about that wad fucking 'how many people'

u didnt ask i didnt ask! we were lived like this for so long in this fucking quiet game.
before the bloody ending i decided to off, i quit! sounds like loser, yes i m! these few days opened my mind, u obviously told by every conversation that u r not or already having dating with somebody else.

since i never have any chance to tell the truth in rite timing, since u been more distance, i finally got my line back, means taking back my heart before it broken, hell, tot i've been so emo lately!

hey wad r u? fed up!! i hate mind game!!

i wanted too much n it killed me! gosh! got to make up my days again! cbcbcbccb!!
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2 men came, i saw it from my window, i panic!! no security man, security is suddenly sick, n i m the temporary cute pretty security, gosh!!
"huh..maybe they come to ask donation, how how how..i peep from the window..wuaaahhhh!!!
he is on the window looking at me! shit! shit! e cute pretty security cant hide anymore!!

ok, breathe melda! open the door slowly and never show ur elegance face or he will ask more donation!

"hello mister! r u looking somebody?"
"yes miss, i m from this.......company, n i would like to attend bidding for drill well"
///blushing..blushing!!! shit!! shit!! they are not asking donation!! omfg!! how bloody i was!!

they came with that wad fucking plastic bag as beggars fav bags one!! hell!!
beggar's inside got many many envelopes mention their family broke their leg or cancer or toothless included the pics then recommendation letter from some bloody hell person and after got money they will purchase new motor bike! WTF!!

i wil accompany u to the event (=

tonite Kurnia Airlines again to Medan! happy anot..? yay i m happy hippy ~~
cos most of us going together, should b so so fun! excited!

lastnite laying on the seat at riverside as always n always talking rubbish
sex talk always made fun wad, everybody interested to join wth!
now everybody know wad MM did with the fucking Bak Pao! 2 hot bak pao together to fuck!! ((=
nothing new?? where is it..why i feel like days getting bored, it never run high anymore??
or boring waiting too long, or even i dont wanna wait anymore, and moving around.. if u still like this til end of the world i will not wait le!

maybe this is my fault, i always did it, dunnoe le, i always stuck with wad fucking schedule!

u r so bloody dudung, why u pretend wad was we talking about and hurry sent us the fucking 3 months schedule! i already found the cheapest training wad! n its clear november we have full activities, n we will not go on nov wad! hell! u r so fucking bloody!

siska
i dont care even u read my blog everyday n make it into your status in ym, hell!
ok, i stop everything about u le, so please never get into my days again. ok, deal!go ahead n get your happiness.

i dont care if u did wad e fucking text to me with wad fucking 'meri' named!! i knew!
whoever u, n if it was from u! u was looking suck when u did it u know! so never do it again.
u happy wt that fucking text ah! u r so chee bay bo kang cho! wtf!

tot i dont like jakarta..i was said "i dont like..i dont like..

arrived in jakarta, my bb spoiled, aiyo!! actually not really spoiled lah, only totally finished the battery!! wait too long in the airport then chit chat on ym! hell!!

wth! had borrowed e porter's phone!

anyway..arrived in apartment n that was a super place to stay, saw here LCD, there LCD, bed room LCD, dining room LCD, ok maybe i title it 'LCD Apartment' ((=

that was luxurious place! and family was fucking nice, i really feel like home!

my phone, spoiled again in the apartment! i tot the phone didnt get used lived in the lux place! it getting used lived in river side point perhaps! hell yeah!! how we grow to be rich, c'mon!!

sister is so so kind sister, i love my niece n nephew, i saw u since u were kid le..

Chalia is so cute n smart n active n good girl n u wear original gucci!! i love her! i miss her much

vivi is so nice mommy, nice fren, nice partner fo gambling either ((=

ayi is very kind woman, n we joke n we chat n we gambling, wtf!! super rite..

another aunty was nice, we went shopping together, actually i accompanied her to the branded Stuffs shops Chanel, LV, Burberry,... aiyo..20 million different from Milan

all the best things spent in there, eat n eat n eat till wanna puke! aiyo..brother got so many cars.. u r that rich ah..got mpv, got bmw, got sport car, n many more..no wonder even ur baby daughter wears original gucci (=

i fed up i didnt get yen in Jakarta
tot u ignore my text, n wad u said?? u didnt get any text from me??? hell...
so actually u never get my text n u didnt realize i m in Jakarta, finally i heard u at my last day.. yeah i was so busy thought but yeah i meant we was quite closed in the same town, and u never know i was there, aiyo how come!!
u should be busy lah in the funeral i knew that..n u had very less rest, how poor u girl..

so finally back to medan together with yen lah, scolding her all the way lah, coz never realise we was at the same town! but how poor she was, she was look so weak n her eyes like Panda, coz never sleep properly during the funeral..

Bloody Drama Queen

my poor sis..

i sorry u was cheated by that one, i knew e one from the very beginning..
i never wanna get involved to both of u, i only could ignore everything happened to u
how that one always blame u about financial matter, or even that one only having fun with u!
how that one asked me to keep all e cheats! wtf! i not into both of u, i only ignore.

e bloody drama queen was created too many too many fake story to make u trust to, and also make chaos to whenever situation that could possible harm e popularity.
did break our relation by slander, fake story, n so many story to hide e lies! so bloody! fuck man!

and u only flown by e story, u did trust, u against ur trusted frens as enemy, u r brain washed!

e devil did slut! to e very green one! u r only a spare!! got it anot!!

now..maybe u still dont wanna trust to ur very frens, too long u stay with the devil, u will need quite long time either to get ur brain back! how poor of u!

everybody know all bout this devil behave, if i could say "public enemy" yes that is!
even u never get the truth from me, u will get it from most of e people that know e devil. u dont have to trust me, just wait n the truth will always come as a diamond, it wont stained by all the fucking slanders!!

cat woman!

today gossip is about Cat Woman! or Black Cat or Vampire!! wtf!


the fucking story is like this:

a man called Fahrul at his home n going to sleep, but suddenly a cat crossing his room n he tried to kicked it out but a cat changed to be a tall girl n wanted to bite him! they both fighting! wtf! finally he ran out and the girl gone!


yep! wtf! this gossip realy happening in the community, it was post in the newspaper, and everybody talk about it!

our community still very primitive, thats why those story can be more popular than MIYABI / Maria Ozawa! that is now get all the eyes from islam in our country due to her visit to indo! Moron!!


aiyo..i m pregnant! about 3 months! the one who will responsible to this is MM!! how come!!

we are agree we havent do anything yet, right! and if we did, we are gonna sell our kids by 10 for $100 yoohoo!!

and our wedding will be a great great party, coz that Giant-Gajah will gill us about 100 grams gold! wuihhh wtf! and Ronal will arrange Batak music stage for 1 week! super! and others will give anything wad they have as a loyal kongsuners huahahah! siao!


eiits, after i told something about my past love story, love?? wtf! moron story!

why so dumb, why didnt say straight to the point! i havent ready yet ok! i only wait for the right timing! coz i not sure u wil happy to hear it. even i not say it is u!

but why u did this, always make a mistery! why hv to changed?! hope u only not ready.


0k ok..tomorrow go to jakarta?! wtf! i dont like.. i dont like...

obviously!! since dunnoe when..i wait n see then i got it now!
we all cant run n hide from wad our heart really want.

when i really wanna stop, u get me back! think i have to stay in this line, wad my bestfriend told me, make it as us. thanks buddy, i heard wad i want.

ok, now i m home, i now love to be home! in my cubicle! in my kota terkutuk, in 'badsigli' , n this is not desperate sentence ((: for sure.

the book inspired me, control my bloody mind, build up my soul, but i will always be bloody me hell yeah..!

hey..suddenly i miss my buddy, i miss willy the virgin badly! the one that i can talk everything with, u always busy lately, cant get u! aiyoo! i miss we 3 with bloody cun! yes..! talk rubbish n pissed! wanna turn back time! wtf!

now wad!

Whew*! How come u think u r the one I talking about in my post! Ckckck! Shame of u!
Now u r reading again rite! Ok I tell u! U r NOT THE ONE I talking about!! Never! Ok! Don't over confidence!

FYI! The one who with me now is just perfect,ok! Too gud to b true!

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Yen..I won't laugh at u! No no, only joke, ok, hahahaha
Why u so plain! Can't be..ok then I wil let u know lah! I m e Guru! Yes!
So..Tomrw cinema again? Yes..! Ur fault yen coz u went without me haha
Should watch e same movie, coz u said nice rite! Must see rite! U accompany loh! Wuaah..

Tired! Should hv a gud sleep tonite, tmrw wanna do wad? Just follow lah.
Have to say sorry, e fact is u only an angel, I too bloody let negtv thinking mess up into us!
We made it fun, we made it, yep!

I have to plan holiday lah! Won't let e days turn bored! Ok ok, I promise!

moron!

Dunno why get involved into this moron game!
Last game played too fast! Was a jet play something like that!
And now..tot should b slow, but too slow then get wad!! Nothing!

Why negative issue always going true! Damn! So fed up! The happy one never really happened! Only clue n clue! Wtf!
Bored already, I wait for nothing! Then ask also can not, just let everything pass by!
Scared wad! Me also dare not to start, here also change nothing, just same!

Asked to that point also never asked for more, only it! Then enough! Oh why turn to b berry mystery! I hate to think by my self!
I never complain wad! Anything ok! Just follow the rules! But why ended like this?!

Or wanna play some fun? N now got it already n feel free to leave like this! Happy now? I scared more than u ever tot! Yes like this!
I did bluff for e question, but was for goodness, to let u stay more longer!
No need to sit that far, mess up wt wad fucking chatting! I even never try to do anything! I accept anything as anything!

fed up!

overwhelmed with many emotions..i not tension, no! i just fed up with everything..anything..!

early morning in the office, i only read email as every bloody day, they was arguing about wad fucking room rate, and i felt to having morning joke beetwen them, said like this "ah com'on dont ask too much from office, only take wad were given" .....and suddenly bloody Husaini really meant it! fuck! he really did it! pour oil on the flame! you are so so fucking bloody!! i only joke with ronal wad! you no need to make chaos between me and Posma! fed up!!

i didnt have any breakfast today, lazy..only had hot milk during meeting! i think i m not so in mood because i m hungry, yes..! correct! got email that mentioned tomorrow going to medan to purchase wad bloody sewing machine that was already request for 2months, hell!! prepare the documents and mimin coming..for fuck! right? for see the fucking bitch on the screen! WTF!!

better back earlier for lunch, yup! after lunch felt much much better, tot that bad mood was from hungry stomach! hell yeaah..!

feel so bored whole day in the office today, chatting bored! surfing bored! sitting only get pain at back!! shit! yesterday was so excited, wth!!

people back home earlier coz black out, actually black out only 20mins! haiyo..took chance from that! ckckckck!

the only relax time is catch up with the gang! Kongsuners! yup! everyday..never miss it! should sit together just at the riverside point, drink beer (steady!), hot tea macham lau akong, and teh botol (so indonesian) hahaha wtf! eat wad, sugar canai..ommelet..and mie goreng! ck!

today got impromtuness gambling! i lostttt!!! fuck! i m going to sell akew mole! or the others aunty and uncle moles! aiyo..! your legendary moles (symbol of family!!) taik lalat legendaris!! WTH!! huahahaha it could be berry very expensive right! huahahaha
tonite topic was nenen!! wuiih! yuuummmmy!!! bigbig twins! horrrraaaayyyy!! who will get the grand prize! wtf! they all going to bet for grab kind of sabine twins! WTF man!!!! they said they only put the dick between it and already get orgasm wtf!!!!!!! huahahahaha!

virgin!

yay~~that is..a virgin hahahahaha WTF!!


first time i talked to 25 years old woman, woman or girl??? umm...and didnt know anything about sextacular. wtf!! but should be funny, i wonder does she horny??? huahahahaha !! yes yes i like kinky stuff!! dont u?? and wad i heard about, seem like very taboo to talk about sex? sex talk only for men?! helll! or lets talk about sex after merried..WTF!!!


then i said, so..you are going to learn to get orgasm after merried?? then when you knew hows orgasm, you are getting menopause huahahahaha WTF!! when...when..u can enjoy life!! huahaha


I think i will like the okke's book "menikah dan lajang, sama enaknya sama ribetnya" yes, it talk about merried woman n single woman.

the merried one should be babies production then take care baby n so on n so on..hahahaha me said, and the single one..people always said single woman will be a cursed virgin-Perawan Tua, WTF!! the fact is:


Do you think i m in suffer and lonely because of love! dont you remember i m fucking free, dont care anything thus can having sex here n there n there anywhere... yay~~ yes! yes! i m single n FREEE
wtf! hahaha ok ok i mean lets do it by love umm..making love, yes correct! no need to get merried and take care the mother in law..wuaaaahhhh! passion gone once see the mother in law face!! huahahahah

actually good to have partner in life..me still looking too (= but still got meh?? the everlasting partner, WTH!! extinct already!! only got one for this month n next month change n others month totally different person! hell yeah..! or money the only one can make people stay..umm..yes!

mixed

yest got sms from the hell!!

hell : melda could you please give me some GAA fund for my personal need? --> WTF!!

reply: oh yeaahhh..can! just text Rodhiah, she will make it for u! --> fuck!

hell : umm...how to say to Rodhiah?! --> stupid ass question!!

reply: (= just say what u just said to me! ----> pretend more then really send u crap!!

hell : how bout if i can get from you either? ---> mm..sounds yummy!! Wad the FUCK!!!!

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just wonder how people think in their mind!! they are brainless!! fuck!! only know ask money for fuck! should say really PUKIMAK!! ask GAA Fund for PERSONAL need!! HOW DARE!!!! really tension with those people who always ask money!

also got many many people ask whether got project to do?! ask for job to Padang! Hell yeah..! we even never know whether got project there or not! me also going to find new job because i m ending my contract soon! and those people who ask for the job are jobless people, and they are too far from qualified! i m not judge, but some of them even never work because of fucking lazy! some was worked BUT sure bad recomended worker! hellll......!!

in Padang people suffering by the earthquake! they do need more help! and here fucking people only ask money for their fun! cant imagine! ck!!!


--OK ok----STOP TENSION---

lets talk about happy yippy stuffs ~~~yayyy~~~

1. received our shop online package..ya..ya..not bad :p i not used to do this shopping online, but sometimes getting bored in the room (= and make fun..dunnoe le this is good quality stuff of not, not branded one, then dunnoe about the quality..

2. u really purposely invite me right?? but how come i can join all party..we are not in the same town, ok.. fren wedding is important, i'll try to join you! and the other one also in the same week, i think we cant make it, I should choose only one le! hmmmm...so how...?

3. wad we are now..? umm..wad? funny le..dont know how to say.. ((=

huey said "come on naa..today we are not ask --> hey i like u, wanna be my partner!"

so wad..is it more fun?? no status, then can get along with other one...? and other one.. yay~~ can be like that right..happy here n happy there..n there n there hahahahaha wtf!

we are dunnoe..i ~u purposely had nice conversation everyday, everynite, every working day, and we have plan to have holiday together, u sometimes shocked me by the wierd talk, i mean sometimes u said like we r a couple and sometimes u seem like pretended this condition about us, u tried to bluff to another cinderela story, prince to princess..wth!!

DIA

(edisi ini tidak untuk dikonsumsi oleh umum) hanya kepada Huey dan nama yg tersebut dibawah!

Berapa jam gue diskusi bareng huey untuk masalah ini..umm…3jam kali, ampe huey selesaiin potong rambut 1 kepala lisa plus make up yg ala mau kondangan! Ckckck… Padahal kita Cuma akan pergi makan kepiting di rumah susun omfg!


pillow talk sama huey gak pernah ada habis nya dh..sejak 7 tahun yang lalu kali yah huey..sekamar n cerita ampe tertidur..(nostalgia) hahaha


“jadi nurut loe, gimana huey? Tadi pas lu masuk dia nanyain gue, nurut loe ada maksudnya gak..? sambil muka serius si huey (ntah dipaksain ato emank nyimak) “nanya apaan dia? Umm..dia nanya ‘gue sebenarnya apa sih’, biasa..status..status..! dia nanya gue sbenarnya suka apa..?! gini..


Dia: "umm lu itu apa sih? Lu suka sama v ya? "
Gue: "hah? V? gak ah..kita Cuma temen n gue bahkan ingin jodohin dia sama dora..! hahaha joke!…maksud loe?
Dia: "kl lu suka v artinya kita sama donk! Maksudku kl lu suka sama jenis v berarti kita sama donk (brother)!! --> sambil nyengir ngejek..


Gue: "hah..umm..gue blom tau, maksud gue, gue blom punya org yg gue suka jd gue gak tau..lagian gue gak bisa kayak lu org pada..gue di lingkungan yg berbeda..(jawabannya rada gak nyambung sih..)


(Sbenarnya gue mau jawab, gue suka ama org kayak loe!!, yg slalu buat suasana jd segerr n menyenangkan!! )
Dia: (sambil angguk, ntah ngerti ntah gak!) ow..ok.. senyum lagi..


Di Kok Tong (coffee)


Dia: kamu tau, aku gak pernah melakukan perjalanan jauh apalg harus keluar negri buat ktemu temen chatting..yg satu kota dengan gue aja gue gak perna pake acara ktemuan..males..!
Dan aku jg gak perna ngirim sesuatu buat orang ampe keluar negri.., hanya dengan kamu..
Gue: “glek!!! Hah..mau jawab apa nih.. Cuma jawab ‘oyah..? dan nyengir lagi…! Wtf!! Bego banget sih! Gue gak tau harus ngomg apa, n gue Cuma terdiam, tolol!


Di Hypermart


Dia: mau belanja apa? Sini gue yg harus bawa keranjangnya..
Well dia act selayaknya gentleman, ok nice..slalu kl saat kita bareng hanya berdua dia buat gitu, apa aja terserah gue n dia jg maksa ingin bayar..ckckckck…


Di suasana lain
Saat gue terima pesan dari ym..ntah knapa gue merasa dia ngawasi gue dgn tatapan bertanya ‘ sapa yg kirim pesan’ so..gue jd merasa harus ngasih tau walaupun dia gak Tanya..”umm ini dari v, dia nanyain lg ngapain n malam akan pergi dinner gak…?”
Dia: oow..dia suka ama lu…kalian sepertinya suka saling menggoda satu sama lain ya, suka chatting dll..
Huh..!! apa-apaan sih dia ngomg gt! “ ah gak kok, dia Cuma nanya doank kl mau kluar yeah ntar dia bisa siap-siap”
Dia: oow…ok (nyengir ngejek!)


Di Karoke
Gue gak mau duduk samping v, gue gak mau banyak cerita dengan v, gue akan bersikap biasa sajah sama smua orang, yeah biar dia gak serang gue terus..! sial..fiuh..!
Alhasil gue undang temen-temen gue yang lainnya dateng n gue lgsg menyatu (cyee…) temen sekampong n sepermainan semasa kecil..gt dh..kita emank klop sejak kecil ckckck…jd gue langsung duduk diantara mereka..dan lagi-lagi..DIA masih melirik ke arah gue, n perhatiin gerak gerik gue..! ck!! Gue gak terganggu kali ini krn emank apa adanya dgn temen lama..tsah!


Di suasana lain lagi..
Dia : “eh bukannya tadi kita akan lompat bareng pas permainan tadi..? eh kok jadi gue sendiri yang lompat?” kok kita gak lompat bareng?” mesra donk (sambil bercanda)
Gue: ?!! “umm eh tadi itu bahaya kl kita melakukannya bareng-bareng..jadi mending satu-satu lompatnya” hehe..


Dia: “knapa lu smalem tidur nya terlungkup?”
Ck! Apa-apaan sih smua hal perlu banget ditanyain! “ oow..itu, biar pinggang kita lebih enakan aja sih..lagian gue jg tidur di sudut biar lu gak terganggu ato sempit..gt dh..” (alasan gue aja) sbenarnya gue gak mau kalo dia pikir yang macem-macem.. soalnya sebelum tidur, pas smua org milih posisi n kasur, gue milih seranjang dgn dia, gak ada pilihan lain sih! halah! Yeah gue udah pernah seranjang dgn dia n smua nya baik-baik saja.jd nyaman aja. Pilihan laen adalah seranjang dengan Dora..ah gak dh, gue jg gak pernah keknya seranjang dgn dora..hihi.. lagian sbelum tidur, pas kita milih tpt tidur dia komen gini “ owh..lu sengaja biar seranjang dengan gue kan..” (sambil ngejek)


Dia: “ow gt yah..tapi gue jg tidur di sudut juga kok supaya lu gak sempit”


Adengan lainnya udah lupa, Cuma itu sih yg masih teringat..! sbenarnya gue jg gak tau knapa mau tau maksud dia dengan pertanyaan-pertanyaan dia, munkin gue Cuma mau clue aja buat bersikap sama dia, yeah..gue gak mau kl gue salah bersikap, ntah malu-maluin atopun bisa menyinggung perasaan dia..dooh!


Sebenarnya lagi gue merasa dia menyimpan sesuatu yang dia blum ingin sampaikan ke gue..dulu..(cyee dulu..macam udah puluhan taon aja kenalnya) dia selalu cerita smua detail hal ke gue, kenalin smua temen-temen nya, gue gabung dengan temen nya, bahkan gue dikenalin dengan anjing nya..ckckckck…
Sampai smua kembali kepada kesibukan masing-masing..kepada kenyataan hidup.. ((=

emo..

everybody going emo lately..i hate to see this, I hate me personal being emo either..!
sometimes I think why people only live with this emo n emo again, useless! Everyday only talk about broken heart, cheat, n so on..why never do something n make life more fun

their emo effect somebody else! All the updated status on facebook also like that, hate it! Moron! I’ve moved out, I m finally doing it! And I don’t look back anymore..let everything go this way..

being with you was a fool, totally wrong choice! I thanks to all the happened things last time, I thanks to being cheated by you, that I will never get along with you, u will harm my life if so! I regret why was so dumb!

Better do something to help people, go to the disaster place and give our help, useful and valuable.
I wish I will be sent to Padang, help people of the earthquake disaster, I wish I can join the emergency response from our welthungerhilfe team. I know how the situation after disaster, my family, relatives n friends also passed this situation when was Tsunami 2004, it was very sad, I really wanna do something to others.